Honestly, I am tired of this endless waiting . The waiting that guarantees me a very blur future . A question for you to ponder , what am I to you ? Though I know you may never ever discover this blog , but if I have the chance I'll ask this very question . I never understand the purpose of you keeping my existance as a secret . I hope yknow that it kills me in the inside due to your actions . I may be smiling but there is a hole inside that is created unintentionally because of you .

What am I to you ?
I really want to know because I want to put a halt to all of these absurd feeling and thougts .