hallucinogenius

Like so many other nights,

I've thought of you again,

Every once in a while,

Since that fateful depart.

Was it a fated depart?

Was I the harbor,

For your ship to sink the anchor,

Momentarily,

Before you sail again,

On another voyage.

Though the absence of you,

Brought good things,

The memories of you,

You,

Were engraved.

Though you stop,

Momentarily,

Then left for so long,

Or for good,

You,

Were engraved.

Though the moments shared,

Were everything but,

Tucked away,

Safe and sound,

In the chest,

That were soon to be downed.

After all,

It said that,

"A Woman's Heart Is A Deep Ocean Of Secrets"

2021

We've had our moments

We've shared our time together

We've spent every second

Every minute

Overly attached to each other

The world around us seemed to fade

When it's just you and me

It was brief

It was momentarily

It was meant to end

We've separated

What we had was long gone

Before we even realized it

Before we even terminate it

So tell me why

The tears streamed down my face?

The memories seemed real?

The grip that I held unto was strong

That it was so hard

So utterly difficult

For me to let it go

Inevitably I learned to let go

Because I saw what needed to be seen

Because I knew what needed to be known

Because I learned what needed to be learnt

Because I gave what needed to be given

Because I moved on

And I will never look back

Like the North and the South

We were so different

As the days grew longer

As our distance grew apart

The differences is distinguishable

And I hold onto the hope

That we won't ever cross each other

Ever again....

Standing alongside the pavement
Where I first saw you there
Walking and idling
Talking to your friends
And laughing so blissfully
That I fell for your charming smile
And your carefree personality

We communicated
We talked
We texted
We became friends
But it was never meant to be more
Though deep down inside me
I was hoping for that one miracle

You are a good friend
From the start I knew
You were never a cruel person
You will never be
You were just confused
And I understand
You meant well

As the wind changes its course
As people changes their hearts
And as I walk a different path
You are still there
Remaining at that part of my story
A story that was meant to forget
A memory that will remain forever

This is the time for me
To bid my farewell to you
Though you were long gone
From my sight and hearing
Wiping you would be hard
But it will never be that hard
With the other by my side

I am letting you go
Embracing him as I moving on
Hoping that you would fade away
Hoping that my shattered heart
Would mend
Thank you for this memory

It takes two
To create what they call
A perfect harmony in a real relationship
A perfect visual of love

But
What does it makes the two of us
When you go the opposite ways of mine
When I defy your demands
When we have different thoughts
Thus failing to create what is us
And there is no more us
But merely you and I

Trying our best to not admit
What has at least clear to me
We are broken
And there is no way we are bent
Broken inside

And when the two of us finally meet
Eye to eye
Face to face
Until it touches our heart
Will it be our first and continues then
Or will it be our everlasting goodbyes

Honestly, I am tired of this endless waiting . The waiting that guarantees me a very blur future . A question for you to ponder , what am I to you ? Though I know you may never ever discover this blog , but if I have the chance I'll ask this very question . I never understand the purpose of you keeping my existance as a secret . I hope yknow that it kills me in the inside due to your actions . I may be smiling but there is a hole inside that is created unintentionally because of you .

What am I to you ?
I really want to know because I want to put a halt to all of these absurd feeling and thougts .

The blog where I can just type, publish my thoughts and stories by my own imagination .
This is truly A Daydreamer's Thought